It's been over 4 years since I last posted something on this blog. Wow.
I guess I could be cliche and say 'so much has happened in that time', but while it has it hasn't either. If that makes sense.
Anyway...
It's just over one week until I get on a plane and try something new. I'm moving thousands of miles away to the Caribbean to teach children in Grand Cayman. I'm either brave or very stupid. People keep saying I'm the former but I can't help feeling the latter.
But I can't stay here, trapped in the same old circles of bad thoughts and frustration while I watch more years slip by. So I'm going to give it a go. Nothing ventured, I suppose.
In my head I see all the things that could go wrong (and I wonder where the bravery and impulsiveness I once had went - and then I remember, 'life). I'm worried about all the usual things - finding a place to live, will I like my job, will I be able to afford to get by okay (it's not the cheapest place to live by all reports!) and I guess will I make friends easily? Maybe those worries sound silly, and maybe they will sound silly to me at some point, but I'm putting them here, publishing them for the world to see. (Well, whatever few people read this anyway).
So I'm giving this ago, sink or swim, it's happening.
I guess I could be cliche and say 'so much has happened in that time', but while it has it hasn't either. If that makes sense.
Anyway...
It's just over one week until I get on a plane and try something new. I'm moving thousands of miles away to the Caribbean to teach children in Grand Cayman. I'm either brave or very stupid. People keep saying I'm the former but I can't help feeling the latter.
But I can't stay here, trapped in the same old circles of bad thoughts and frustration while I watch more years slip by. So I'm going to give it a go. Nothing ventured, I suppose.
In my head I see all the things that could go wrong (and I wonder where the bravery and impulsiveness I once had went - and then I remember, 'life). I'm worried about all the usual things - finding a place to live, will I like my job, will I be able to afford to get by okay (it's not the cheapest place to live by all reports!) and I guess will I make friends easily? Maybe those worries sound silly, and maybe they will sound silly to me at some point, but I'm putting them here, publishing them for the world to see. (Well, whatever few people read this anyway).
So I'm giving this ago, sink or swim, it's happening.
I am totally envious and full of admiration for you. What an adventure. Whatever it turns out to be, at least you are making that difference and actually doing something positive to change your situation. Life's ruts are difficult to get out of. You won't be closing doors, just opening new ones. I'm looking forward to reading your blog. YOLO - as the kids say!! Best of British luck to you. Maria xx
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